Silly Goose

You freckled faced girl
You opened me up without me realizing
You healed me effortlessly
I miss you, every day
but I won't push you nor life itself for you to come back 
You held a mirror in front of me
not for judgement but to love me
To love the essence and the core of "me"
For the mirror you were holding was You.
You and I are the same
which is why I understood and understand your running
You told me our friendship had developed into more for you, 
you grew "feelings" for me
you ... "love me"
"how would all of this work?" you said, 
"aren't you scared?"
With you by my side, no, I was fearless
I knew we would figure this out together,
but when you ran...I was left standing on my own
I see star wars things, mushrooms, dinosaurs, sonic, and I think of you and the little ones
But with every day, I see those things and it hurts less. 
The natural state of you loved me
Parts of me that everyone had found distasteful, 
you found it hilarious, made you laugh, and oh that laugh filled me with such joy.
I knew I loved you, agape love
but when you walked away...
I realized how important and vastly your love was for me. 
How much it meant to me. 
I didn't want to control you, tell you what to do next. 
I loved and love you to the point where I simply want you to be free. 
Even though we did have romantic love for each other, I didn't want to box you in into a romantic anything. 
You made me feel seen like no one else had before. 
It never crossed my mind you would leave.
It was hard for you to express yourself at times, 
find the right words for your feelings but you never had to fully say it
I knew what you meant before you speaking.
I knew your thoughts, I felt you within me, in my mind. 
You knew I got you, I understood and still understand you. 
It's just painful. 
I understand the lesson in all of this, 
We were each other's mirrors. 
A glimpse of how beautiful it is when you open yourself up, let yourself be loved and love another. 
It doesn't have to be only romantic, the love I felt was simply love, no boundaries. 
I felt you caring about me and I know you felt me care about you. 
I understand your need to do this on your own, and I respect that. 
Just know, I'll always have love for you. 
Thank you for what you gave me, for being so raw with me. 
I know it all scared you, you weren't ready to take it step by step and figure out what this all was for us. 
One day you will, with me or another, but most importantly with yourself. Love yourself always, I will do the same. I let you go now. Be free. 

-Love, 
your twin flame. 
The Night We Met - Lord Huron