Grazie!

Thank you for leaving 
It pushed me to focus on only me for a change.
I've really taken this time to think of everything;
existential crisis some may call it but I call it a blessing to be able to erase everything on the board and start again
To have the privilege to do that.
To say: "this has been working until now...Now I will do different."
I have crawled into the hurt of my childhood to rescue her and love her. 
I thank you for that. You leaving, gave me the bravery but also the space to dig in. 
I know you're doing the same. Healing and re-inventing yourself, 
being You without letting fear stop you.
Proud of you. 
Miles away, but I smile when I think of you. 
Fairy tale dreaming that one day we will meet again, and you will tell me all the stories you are making now
All the acts of bravery you had to do to be who you are. 
The ache of not having my bestie has turned into joy that she's out there killing it and fighting for "Her". 
I never doubted that you would have the life that you wanted
I had just hoped to be part of the metamorphosis
but what really matters here is that you are in the metamorphosis part of your life
and even if you may not see or speak to me, know I am still your number one cheerleader. 
There's no doubt you'll get to where you need to go. 
There's no doubt you'll be person you always dreamed of as a child, fearless and joyful, no hurt. 
Keep going. I believe in you. But most of all, 
thank you for reminding me that I am my own biggest fan.
You choosing yourself made me realize that it's not a bad act of selfish-ness but the biggest act of self love. 
Keep choosing yourself, and so will I. 
I love me, and have for a long time now, but you gave me that nudge to really dig deep and not be afraid to be open about it. 
Thank you and always remember I am proud of you. 

Much Love 

Ta Reine - Angele