thump it goes

Heart pounding in my ears
thump, thump, thump it goes
it won't stop
cigarette in my hand
i am not sure of many things
but i am sure that i am suppose to be living
i am sure that i am suppose to keep going
day by day
that's how the thing goes
you must grow some thick skin to survive
but most of all, 
you must grow a thick skin
to love
and that's why i choose you
I "choose" you 
it's not a matter of feelings, 
or emotions that guide one
it's about choice