Oh, life

green lights
yellow lights
red lights
stop signs
green street signs with white font
roads with endless trees on their sides
wheels going back-and-forth,
back-and-forth
speed limit 40-45
your humming voice 
in my head during my 10 long hours shift
nights with no clouds blocking the 
bright white moon from shining 
and sunrises that should be your screen saver
All this, you might say
is beautiful 
yet i feel numb to it all
I should smile bigger
say good morning to every neighbor 
walking their dog at night and/or morning
I should appreciate it more
and I will, just not now
day by day
day by day
I'll regain strength 
and beauty and love
will grow inside me 
for this time,
the seed is planted in good soil