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Have you ever gotten to that point where you wonder what love truly is?
Is it when people do things for us that we don’t ask for?
Or is it when they do exactly as we tell them?
Is it those that follow our orders?
Or is it those that don’t hear what we vocally say, but know what we’re saying inside and do that instead?
and so we feel like those people get us, that’s why we love them?
Have you ever wondered truly what love is?
I know this may sound to many as a high school girl writing, but no.
What I mean is, when you are twenty something years old already and you see your friend’s life
and the way they chose to live life,
you see their relationships, their marriages, their newborn kids,
you see their fights, their infidelity, their pain, their backstabbing,
the hatred that could be inside a relationship,
and wonder, what keeps these two people together?
what is it that we consider love that makes us stay with one person?
Some don’t believe in monogamy, but putting that aside,
what is love?
what makes us open to other people,
whether it be in friendships or romantic relationships?
Cause in the end everyone lets us down at one point, whether they mean it or not
But isn’t that just someone not meeting our expectations?
There’s a friend that said she couldn’t do the long distance,
but for another friend of hers she can do long distance
should that hurt me? No. Maybe. But no.
I feel that we are all flawed, and like the words from Bob Marley:
“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”
I have been an asshole before, forgetful, not knowing the value of some friendships,
and that’s why I let things go more at ease now, because I’ve been in the perpetrator’s shoes.
I’ve been the one that has hurt others, many times without meaning to, I was too inexperienced and lacked to know the value of things.
But now I value any “love” I am given.
For every human being gives love differently.
It may sound complicated or even cliche, like “no one is going to love like you do”,
yes, that’s true, but isn’t that the beauty of it?
To value how each of us love?
After all, what is love?
is it the things that we do for one another?
is it our actions?
is it our feelings alone?
Is it words?
Is it this click, that happens inside of us, where we know if we love that person or not?
or is that infatuation?
In the end, what is love for you? How would you describe love?

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