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How do I heal?
How can you heal?
How can we face or distinguish what's wounded and in need of treatment?
Is it as simple as keep repressing it, 
pressing it down till we forget about it for a period of time?
Would this not eventually become like a champagne bottle being shaken,
building pressure inside for so long, that it no longer can stay inside
but bursts out in an uncontrollably manner?
Opened champagnes are due in celebrations
but will your jar full of worms be a celebration?
or do you fear you'll ill everyone by opening up?
How will YOU heal?

It can get ugly before it gets beautiful

Have you ever thought,
if only I would focus,
if only I would stop being my own enemy,
if only for once I would fight for myself
if only one damn time, I would say no,
and take care of myself
if only I would be honest to myself, 
as im honest to anyone else
if only I took my own advice
if only I would stop saying:
"if only..."
and did something,
spoke, instead of thinking.

Have you ever thought,
will I ever reach that point when I'll say,
and truthfully mean it...
I have loved "me" 
(letting an involuntary smile form upon your face)
but then again,
...if only...