Want to keep you.

There’s something about you that gives me the chills

It scares me, but only

For the damage others have left. 

You give me reassurance, but the wounds warn me

Warn me to look,

To look for the same signs that they were created

I feel bad when I do though

For I want to be able to trust… fearless…for the first time if it’s possible

That’s why I want to apologize,

I don’t mean to

I want to be able to give myself without thoughts

Without warnings,

 I want these defense mechanisms out

My own defenses are my own offenses, my enemy

I am scared but energy is wasted when one is cautious 

We shall see whether we keep each other

Or not

I hope I am able to keep you.