NYC

I’ve been missing you lately
thinking about everything that you’ve taught me
about how you made me into a woman.
How you opened my eyes to so many cultures and adventures
how my tongue is not the same after tasting you
how you gave meaning to my thoughts after visiting your brain
how ignorant was I before I met you?
Oh, I could not be more thankful for your rude awakening
it was rough at first,
felt as if I was being punished
the foul smells,
the loud noises,
and the speed walking and talking
it almost felt as if you didn’t care,
but it all changed once I let you in,
once I decided to hear you out before being scared off by your honesty.
You changed me,
forever,
and I will never forget that.
You taught me that home is within me, and yet in all of you
You showed me to sit on a bench and hear you roar  
You showed me your softness,
you caressed my cheek with your poetry
and embraced me with your high expectations for me.
I have left you for now,
but ill be back,
and this time, you’ll get to know me.

La vie en rose - Louis Armstrong

Sane and sensible

Stability.
I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately.
How can you have stability when the world is constantly changing?
Financial stability,
emotional stability,
mental stability,
stability.
What does it mean to be stable?
Some synonyms are; steadiness, firmness, strength, durability, lasting nature, enduring nature...
One definition is: the strength to stand or endure.
So, in all stability really means to stick around, to last.
It doesn’t mean that there won’t be any ups and downs
it doesn’t mean that you won’t have your days were you’re crying your eyes out,
it doesn’t mean that you won’t have days where you are angry at everything,
it doesn’t mean you will be consistent in the “mood” you’re feeling,
it means that even though you will experience many ups and downs,
confusions and mood swings,
you will stay consistent in showing up every day.
In waking up every morning no matter how you’re feeling.
Stability for me now, means to be alive.
I used to think it was someone that had their “shit together”,
meaning: a good paying job, or had your business,
someone who wouldn’t have days of torment;
where you wouldn’t know who you were,
or you would simply wake up angry that day for no apparent reason,
where you would cry and just be confused about where you are in life.
I understand now, that stability is going through all the stuff that life throws at you, but
“being stable” in the sense that you’re still here, you still show up to live,
and that my friend is the most outstanding sign of stability.
Everyone is on their way to being better, every day
some days you see the results more than others but that doesn’t mean that you’re not stable
It doesn’t mean that you’re not advancing,  
it simply means its life, and you’re living it.
Stick with it, stick around and you’ll see the results get better and better.
Thank you for listening,
Stay stable.