Miss you

I miss you
I miss you mom.
I miss you so much.
It aches.
I ache.
I've been crying all night, missing you
Your gentle touch on my face
Your tight hugs when I would have panic attacks
You would move your hand up and down my back,
telling me "it's ok...it's ok"
rocking me back and forth between your warm arms,
loving me.
I miss you mom,
I miss you so much,
I want to hug you, and kiss your cheeks and forehead,
and tell you face to face how important you are,
how beautiful you are.
I love you mom,
I am so thankful to have had you physically in my life,
to have had your "caricias"
your warmth, your sweet words
your pure love.
I wish I could have just one more of your hugs
I want to crawl back into your arms
and put my head on your chest, hearing your calming breaths
I hear that you are alive by the beat your heart makes.
Mom,
I miss you.
I wish I could take back all those teenager years and
instead of going out with friends, I'd stay home with you
I wish I would have treasured every moment you gave me like it was oxygen.
Only one hug, one hug of yours and everything will be alright.
I am rocking back and forth on my bed,
hugging oh so tightly the doll you gave me.
Mom,
I miss you.
I wish you were here, and we could take our daily walks together.
I miss sitting next to you in the couch while watching our shows.
I miss cutting your hair,
I always adored how you let me try different styles on you.
Mom, you are truly my best friend.
There is no one that will love me how you love me.
I admire you, you are truly a star in my eyes.
You are and will always be my angel.
Mom,
I love you,
thank you for showing me what love is.
But overall,
I miss you ma, I miss you.

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